Change is in the Air

Evan has been a really good boy at home lately and when we have to go out to run some errands. However, at school this is beginning to become a different story. Yesterday when Kevin went to pick him up, Evan's teachers gave us a little insight as to how his days have been going lately.

We knew he had been going through a hitting phase at home and at school for a little while a few months ago. We thought we had worked through it and resolved all of the underlying issues. There was a little girl in Evan's way and she wouldn't move. Ev proceeded to hit her over and over and over. The poor little girl stood her ground (good for her!) and didn't budge an inch. Evan didn't hit her hard enough to make her cry or even leave red marks, but it is still disturbing behavior none-the-less.

He went into the corner for a few minutes and got an explanation of why it isn't nice to hit friends. His teachers think he is beginning to realize that something major is about to change; he hasn't really ever acted out that bad in the past, but I guess it is becoming a little more frequent. There are also a few pretty big changes going on within his classroom as well that could possibly be contributing factors: his best friend was just transitioned to the two year old room and his other BFF is leaving school for the summer since his mother is a teacher. That leaves him with only one of his good buddies.

We are trying our best to process this and make things go a little easier for Ev, but it is hard to judge how much of what we are telling him about his new brothers he is truly understanding. When you ask him where they are, he will lift up his shirt and show you his belly. He does give them kisses on my stomach when you ask him to, so I guess that is good?

I have to admit, the closer we get to D-day, the more nervous I get about the whole big picture. I have my moments where saying things out loud or even in my head sends me into a weird "I can't believe I'm having two babies" panic. And then to hear that Evan might not be handling this very well already is only adding to the stress.

I haven't been sleeping well at night. I'm seriously contemplating moving myself out to the recliner during the night. Sleeping in my own bed is proving to be extremely painful and restless and my general state of being has hit an all time low in this pregnancy. I have already decided no more trips out to the stores and not even down to my parents' house where it is easy for me to relax. It is all just too much for my body to handle.

On a lighter note, I had my first biophysical profile on Wednesday. It was a modified version, so they didn't really do a whole lot of "stuff". The tech made sure their fluid levels were still good, measured the heart beats and watched to see that both of them were using their lungs to practice breathing. It was really neat to see their little bellies expanding and contracting!